skulking out along the treeline
i cut a feral figure
shallow creep of cold
the frost crust of the snowbank
paws crush through
and you liked the shape
of my rambling tracks
you’re not supposed to approach
the wildlife
that’s not a metaphor that’s
an actual rule
hide riddled with fleas
you didn’t look that close
if you’d pulled my lip back
examined my teeth
i could’ve snapped and snarled
and sent you home
dripped blood hiss
against the snow-soft quiet
been done with this whole business
but you saw that feral figure
thought i could show you how to move
like that like
hackles up spine sharp
you saw hungry eyes
and read desire but
my hunger is mean
a ripped flesh kind of hunger
new moon sclera glint
set straight grip skull and
know to name her predator
my kind of hunger
can’t be diluted through you
i thought this was evident
you didn’t deign come close
to fetch the flesh you covet instead
laid down iron teeth in my well-trod wake
snapped shut bone bruise sinews quake
let me be clear
i will chew off my limb
what did you think was going to happen?
skin is so
flexible it twists
around my molars got to
clamp down pull rip
scrape fascia slice through
hit vein hot spurt my blood
splashes back down my throat
chew through ligament
tendon tissue
cracks ice chipped down past
muscles made that rambling gait
you liked the shape of that
jaw bone numbed up
sparked up fuzz shot vision
crunch through crunch through
crunch blood hot spurt through crunch
i will know
the taste of my own marrow
before i will be soft for you
I liked the shape
of your rambling tracks
a beast
wants to be tame
be soft
you could
be soft
with me
teach me to live untethered and together
we could be untethered
together
be soft
with me
you are shaped
like something I could love
dear one
stop
stop
god, stop
a beast
wants to be tame
a beast
stop
wants to be tame, be soft
be soft
you could
be soft
for me
Kat Jackson (she/they) is originally from Wyoming, though she lived in Western Montana while earning a BA in English and an MA in Environmental Philosophy from the University of Montana. Kat draws inspiration from multi-species theory, queer ecology, and the idea that horror, at its most potent, can be an act of hope and resilience. She currently lives in Iowa where she is pursuing dual master’s degrees in Creative Writing and the Environment and Anthropology.